Monthly Archives: July 2018

Ooh Stick You

I did some normal today and had coffee and conversation with Si. We’ve both had our ups and downs – ok, our downs – this summer but it felt like we’re both now finding our way through the stuff that … Continue reading

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COMPLIANCE

Note to self: adding notes to self within one’s own blog is supremely meta and suspiciously narcissistic. Monday. Wankybastardstartoftheweek day. Same as any other day for me, ordinarily, because I’m cripple dole scum. My days blend into one another to … Continue reading

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Things That Weren’t Or Were 2

“Big Bro, do you love me?” “You know I’m not your brother, I’m…well, it’s complicated.” The older boy tails off with a phrase he’s sometimes heard adults use to end difficult conversations. “But do you?” “Listen Kid, I stole you … Continue reading

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The Imitation Game

The tortuous road back to the poor imitation of normal life that passes for normal life for me, er, normally, begins with doing imitations of normal things. I am currently experimenting with imitating one normal thing per day and seeing … Continue reading

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Things That Weren’t Or Were

A five year old boy and a ten year old are standing by a crashed car out of which both have crawled. The five year old has a cut lip which has bled a little down over the ‘Tesco: I … Continue reading

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Ah! Böwakawa Poussé, Poussé

When dreamers have their noses rubbed too hard in the harsh realities of a compromised existence they find it hard to continue dreaming. Dreams are a form of motivation, aspirational whimsy which I, for one, have always used as the … Continue reading

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Don’t Believe In Yourself

Sad and empty. Weeks and weeks of sad and empty. Now and then comes a momentary glimpse of a more functional me but he subsides back under the tidal sadness and emptiness that is hollowing me out day after day. … Continue reading

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