Category Archives: Family

Into Darkness

I am broken. Beyond the ordinary brokenness that comes with living with two chronic health conditions, beyond any hope of redemption from platitudinous anecdotes about how Chinese pottery is most beloved when it is most broken (and, significantly, fixed), to … Continue reading

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In Which I Whinge About The Events Of The Past Year One Final Time

A year ago I was about to spend my second ever New Year’s Eve in hospital. I’d already been on the wards for nine days, having been admitted before Christmas, and I had a few days left to go before … Continue reading

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Fog Everywhere

With less than a week until a new year begins, today I somehow drove further than I have at any other point in 2018. Not from Devon to Scotland or anything so adventurous, just to North Somerset to spend a … Continue reading

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That Was The Year That Was [Well 49 Weeks Of It Anyway]

Three weeks until 2019 shakes me warmly by the hand and, I very much hope, promises to treat me way better than 2018 has treated me. Most of this year I’ve been drowning, not waving, and it’s not easy to … Continue reading

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Excuses, Excuses

The arguments I used to have with the mother of my first child were more distressing, powerful and frightening than pretty much any others I’ve had in my life. Neither one of us was especially adept in the art of … Continue reading

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Cave Of Shadows

Eight days on from the news of my father’s death I find myself in uncharted waters. As I grapple with the need to forgive a ghost and lay some of my own ghosts to rest I am barely held together … Continue reading

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I’ve Loved, I’ve Laughed, And Cried

If the past is another country how come EasyJet don’t fly people there? As a person who builds the present on a bedrock of nostalgia which is then terraformed by concerns about the future, I have this time travel thing … Continue reading

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