Tag Archives: fear

Not So Grand Tour

Only in sleep am I truly safe. Sadly, sleep is a commodity my increased sense of being unsafe makes extremely rare. I cannot settle at night. Exhaustion eventually takes me in the small hours, which in itself does little to … Continue reading

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Day Terrors

A horrible, horrible weekend in which I have felt unsafe and unheard. As a consequence, last night I was unable to relax enough to sleep until dawn and my already battered body has slipped yet another level down.  Aside from … Continue reading

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Cave Of Shadows

Eight days on from the news of my father’s death I find myself in uncharted waters. As I grapple with the need to forgive a ghost and lay some of my own ghosts to rest I am barely held together … Continue reading

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I’m A Bird! I’m A Plane! I’m A Choo-Choo Train!

Being asleep, being awake, watching comforting televisual things (which almost always means Dr Who or Star Wars), eating gentle foods, wearing a favourite t shirt. This is how I am coping with Wednesday in a low-key bid to make it … Continue reading

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Bizarre Travel Plans Are Dancing Lessons From God

Two years ago I was in that America for the very first time. You now the one, with its states all united and stuff. Back then they had a president but they changed that a while ago and have installed … Continue reading

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The Weariness, The Fever And The Fret

The upside of powerful painkillers is pretty obvious – they’re quite well suited to killing pain powerfully for a while which can be a blessing when every day has pain and pain and pain. The downside of powerful painkillers can … Continue reading

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Where’s Your Head At?

My head has been to some dark places over the last couple of days. After a week of me predominantly feeling capable of human actions and interactions Friday slammed me into the ground like a cop who decided I looked … Continue reading

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